Life in Act-uality

Tales of an aspiring actor/adult

Dreaming, hoping, staying open

I came across my words from an earlier post about wanting to stay open and dream and hope amidsts the cahoas Admittedly i feel like i’ve been failing that lately, creating drama out of the poor shitbag of a yoga teacher or collegauge, or waitress, or guy sitting on the bus with his shitty musc blasting through even though its 8 am and who the fuck listens to heavy rock at 8 am?!.. Read More

Essay on enlightenment I did for yoga class

I don’t completely hate the definition of Enlightenment as man’s emergence from his self-incurred immaturity. (Immaturity being the inability to use one’s own understanding without the guidance of another). But I mean C:MON, we’re all still HUMAN. We make mistakes and have unexpected things thrown in our faces and what -we’re just supposed to ignore the sounding board? Ignore the “ oh hey, I’ve been there too’s- call jim the plumber or joe.. Read More

Union with self

Hey guys Lots to report so here goes. SO I have been doing my yoga teacher training the last couple months!Now i should preface this by saying it was an extremely weird and shady organization and at this point im not sure i actually got my certification or not BUT I got a ton of yoga in and man alive did I ever need it. Something about the movement of yoga and stretching.. Read More

Tonight I had an incredible night teachign a friend yoga and chatting, and when I left I immeadiately ran into two actors I know, respect, and admire. I don’t know what that means, but I think I might just be on the right path? I also admire these actors because they live their own lives… perhaps I have something to learn from them

What it all means

Hi friends so this week in class Im working on a scene where i’m picking up a girl at a gaybar, and frankly it’s been really revealing for me in terms of my tendancies in my own dating life( ie I like to play mysterious instead of just going in there etc). But it’s fun beuse the bigger the better and I feel like I’m really allowed to just take my space  and.. Read More

Why is it so scary

If I’m being honest, I think it’s really scary for me NOT attending Canada Day festivities today with my friends because choosing to be in my body and acknowledge what i need to feel good today means letting them do their thing and ONCE again being on the outisde of fun activities, a feeling i knew all too well from college. I really struggled between trying to  take care of my health and.. Read More

Round Two

Hey team So this morning I woke up feeling a little less than stellar. I have multiple plans forthe day none of which revolve aorund me lying on my couch for the morning. But yet here i am, and you know what? It actually doesn’t feel half bad. But here I was / am.. going on the brain drain train  – i don’t have enough money, I don’t have enough  this, I don’t.. Read More

Easy does it

Ok so now that i’ve found my groove with writing I’m not really feeling like stopping just yet. Fuck me, this always happens. I actually started writing just after I put the tub on.   So a few things that I have places to improve In my acting class there is a guy that i once upon a time did a scene with. And it went great!!! UNTIL that is, he abruptly left… Read More